Deep, I know. But when I sit to ponder [...]]]> I’ve heard it said that ‘like attracts like’ and that if you have a will then there’s a way. If that’s so, then why am I still so little? Why have I not realized and actualized the humongous vision I deeply believe I’m here to manifest?

Deep, I know. But when I sit to ponder what more I can be doing in my life- meaning my career, my relationships, my health, my finances, my spirituality, I begin to realize that I’ve tried to keep life balanced and the journey as remotely easy & comfortable. Call me a peacemaker, an eternal optimist. But at the end of the day it’s just a front for my fear of failing should I set my sights so high. So instead of commit to BIG, I have allowed my limiting thoughts to take hold and push out my large desire to conquer the world. I get it. I see that now.

Great! All that said and digested, how do I fix my situation? How does one break free of one’s limiting mindset and actually manifest the glorious destiny envisioned? Well, I don’t have all the answers. I actually don’t even really have a single answer. But I certainly have a personal to-do list of my own, which I will share for those who have read this far and wish to synergize:

DAILY:

-daily meditation & cleansing (I am a spiritual being and find it hugely beneficial to connect with my spirituality daily. I am also a lover and addict of working out at high intensity for at least an hour daily & consuming raw juice!)
-bitching to my mom and best friend about how my agent doesn’t send me out (this becomes constructive when they then push me to become proactive and create opportunities as opposed to waiting around)

-updating my LISTS (I am crazy about making to-do lists, both daily, weekly, monthly, yearly, and 5-yearly/vision board), so I am constantly checking in with my progress, and trying to magnetize bigger and better people, things, and miracles my way.

I have this strange feeling that if I declare my hopes and wishes for the next few months publicly that they will perhaps materialize:

I would love:

-an agent with balls & gusto to help me become BIG

-to be a fly girl on the new IN LIVING COLOR

-to fundraise enough to get TWO BLONDE STALKERS (the web-series) rockin and rollin’!

-to be on GLEE

-to find my soulmate

In the meantime, the lessons I’ve learned I’ll take with me, and remind myself of them daily. Like APPRECIATING where I am. Because without stopping to appreciate the NOW, the blessings I have at the current moment, I am diminishing the space for more greatness to come. So thank you. Thank you Universe for making me crazy, and a big old blabbermouth, and passionate about some insane stuff that most people just don’t care about. For that, I thank you, and drink copious amounts of alcohol.

Peace in the Middle East.

January 27th, 28th @ 8pm.